Never Have I Ever....

Today I woke up extremely sad. Uncomfortably so, in fact. I couldn't, for the life of me, shake the feeling. I am generally really good at keeping my composure in different situations. I have also picked up an ability to separate myself from an emotion and view it objectively, so as to find a positive aspect to it and focus on that. Don't get me wrong, sometimes my patience wears thin and this ability doesn't really shine. Hope tomorrow might not be one of those days. I will be visibly shook and people will notice.

The thing is, normally, there is a reason for an emotion. You experience something that ignites the feeling. Good or bad, it's all the same procedure. But today I could not figure out what brought it on. I just had this sunken sorrow in me from the minutes my eyes opened. Obviously, that sprouts other emotions that reach the surface easier and act as a mask of sorts.

Layers upon layers of emotions sometimes build up if the core is not found in time and unfortunately, by the time you realize, mountains have already risen off the surface. Emotional mountains are the hardest to climb, and even harder to dig into.

Loneliness is something we all struggle with. Everyone has their own take on it. From how they deal with it, to where it stems from and how it affects other aspects of life.

" In the past it was easy to choose my extroverted needs as I was substance fueled. There is no introvert left after ploughing through a mountain of cocaine. The catch though, is that in that realm there is a lot of talk but absolutely no connection".